Sometimes I cut to try and bleed out because I can’t handle life anymore
Sometimes it’s all three at once…
I totally understand this because I’ve been there. I would also cut when I was so angry I could hurt someone. I was afraid I would literally kill them, because my father was a murderer. So I would cut and cut until the anger was gone. The worst time I ended up having to get 27 stitches. I did that to myself. If I unleashed that anger on the person I was furious with, I no doubt would have maimed or killed them. Since then I’ve found better ways to cope with anger, but I still get scared of it sometimes.
Yesterday was the 2 year anniversary of the last time I cut… I began cutting almost twenty years ago.